alexandra8011

I have one hour and 11 minutes left of work. And I'm totally bored. Arg. :-( I think it's just my mood - I couldn't fall asleep last night, so I took a Tylenol PM, and wham! I have pretty much been 30% awake all day.

So things are good. Well. They're okay. Sometimes they're good. My mom's been having a hard time with my dad's death lately and I can't say that it's gotten any easier for me either. I miss him everyday. Anyway, she broke down in tears last week to me and really just poured out her heart about things - how things were in her first marriage, and how much my dad meant to her. It was so hard, both to hear about the awful times in her life, and to try to comfort her now that her main shoulder to lean on is gone. I feel so helpless.

So all that has kind of spilled over into the rest of my life. I have an appointment with a counselor on Thursday. I think it will be good for me to talk to someone.

Pat and I had a big fight yesterday because I took a nap after work, and he called me a bunch of times and I didn't hear the phone. Which ended with me in tears. *sigh* I was just so tired, and Catherine invited me to Bible study, so I knew I'd be up late. I think he thought I was deliberately avoiding him.

Sometimes I feel like throwing things.

Anyway, brighter things! Focus on the positive, Alex. Lol. Bible study was really good, and I was so glad that I went. It made me feel 100% better. On Sunday I took myself to the movies and saw Drag Me to Hell. Sam Raimi, who did all the cheesy Evil Dead movies and the Hercules series and Xena series, which I adore, half-wrote it and directed, so I was determined to go, cheesy movie or no. It was okay. I wouldn't say it changed my life, but I enjoyed it for the most part. It had a lot of gross-outs and *wham!* there's a scary person! moments. There was only one part that bothered me - the main character had a little kitten that looked just like my Posie cat, and at one point she's being chased around and harassed by this demon, so a medium tells her she could try to appease it with a blood sacrifice. She's all like "No, I could never do that! I'm a vegetarian - I volunteer at the puppy shelter!" But then the demon throws her around and tears stuff up, and the next scene you see her holding a kitchen knife going "Here kitty, kitty..." Like, she couldn't find a chicken or something? A mouse? No, she kills her cat and buries it in the backyard. So by the time the movie ends, we're supposed to be on her side and we think she's conquered this demon, but there's a twist and she gets dragged to hell, and I was like "Hells yeah! Drag that bitch inhumane person to hell!" I'm just a crazy cat person like that.

Speaking of Posie, she and Minnie are doing well. Posie has developed into quite an "expressive" cat. As in, she likes to meow if she doesn't get what she wants. Lol. And considering she doesn't speak english, that can be hard to decipher. Pat and I have taken to calling her Miss Crankypants. :-) She's still adorable though. I love my furry babies.

P.S. - I am totally psyched about the New Moon movie. I saw the trailer, and I'm 99% sure I'm going to be there on opening night, probably dressed like Bella, amongst my nerdy peers. :-)